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 Context I don't think i ever really knew my mother - though I probably knew her better than most. She was deeply willing to share bits of herself with me ... but she had a twisted and jaded mindset, so every word had an extra layer of guilt and expectation. When my mother died, there was a funeral. I remember being distracted and very distractible. We'd had the luxury being able to say goodbye - she was trapped in a hospital bed, unable to eat, as her body actively deteriorated - and so I had the luxury of visiting and knowing, on that day, it was likely literally the last day I would see her. The goodbye then didn't seem real. On the day of her funeral, I suspect it was expected that I would speak. Maybe not a long word, but an earnest one. But I didn't. I chickened out. I couldn't seem to find the words. Instead, it was a marvel - someone at the funeral home asked about 10 questions and was able to reverse engineer something of her life story. It didn't have ...
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Context So, I was listening to The Rookie (television show) playing on the car's stereo while driving from class. And I realized that I am not like the main character. I was shocked to realize I'm like Bradford (the ultra non-nonsense cop who is several of the new rookies' TOs). This was Season 1 Episode 12 (Heartbreak) where he's chatting with his actual wife - who he had disconnected from because she had made some horrible life choices and had basically become a different person. It broaches several topics ... * How do you maintain a relationship with someone who has chosen a compromised moral position? * How do you forgive and love someone who has made a fundamentally unforgivable choice? * Do you have to know, really know, the sorts of decisions someone makes to fully forgive them? * Is, as The Joker espouses, everyone one bad day away from becoming a bad person? * If you have high-standards for your spouse, and your spouse earnestly wants to satisfy those standards...
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